This is the time of my life. i will mish everyone espicially you..love you so much

Time Of My Life


confesssion

Hey there. This is my last post before I leave for goods. I’m still at Brunei by the way I’ll be leaving for six months having my recruits training. Well my application being accepted. I am no longer a civilian now and I have to face this transformation way of life being an army.

Honestly I never thought or dreams to be an army until I found many advantages of being one of them. Well this decision will change my life. I have a responsibility and a career right now. Just wish me luck guys and pray for me to be safe always by the time I will be train at Penanjong Camp.

Before I leave this blog, I want to share story of peoples who always being around me especially my family who always support me in everything I do. It’s time for me to take my responsibility to make my family’s life better and I will do that and sure I will do and that’s what I dream for.

I am sorry if this post a bit formal than the previous posts. I apologize if do something wrong to you peoples who knows me, especially my family, friends, her, and peoples who knows me. We’re just human. The more we’ve try to be perfect the more mistakes we will do to guide us and learn from what we’ve done.

Sacrifice is the important thing in life. Yes it is. To achieve something that we dream for, these things will rise as a fuel to light up your courage. As this goes you never care every obstacle and difficulties that act like a devil whispering to your ears. Before I am person who wants to see things getting better and now I am person who wants to make things better. Words come as a plan and act when we’ve got an opportunity and this is the time. Head straight, step up, new page on my diary will be written.

6 month will be the hardest time of my life and I will my best to face it. Just give me support guys. I really need it. And honestly the people that I will miss the most are my family and her. I had once lived far with my family which makes me easier to deal with. But I’d never being far with her. This is the first time and I wish this is also the last I’m being far with her.










Her,

Face your day with smile,
Just like I’m beside you,
Even tough far,
I always feel that you always beside me

Do what should you do,
Don’t do what you shouldn’t do,
Bear in mind, I am going to achieve my dream,
It’s time for you to do the same thing

Even though far,
Don’t feel like you are alone,
Cause I’m always besides you,
Greet your morning and evening,

Love for you will never end,
It is you and always you,
So obstacle will be face with patient,
Tears shows that u r getting stronger


Miss,

I’m going to miss;
1) Our great time together.
2) Your smile.
3) Your voice.
4) The time you always be there for me when I sad.
5) The time you mad at me when I’ve done wrong.
6) To look into your eyes.
7) When we always make fun with each other.
8) To accompany you lunch when you are at college.
9) Online ‘ing’ with you.
10) To hold you in my arms.
11) To share stories with you.
12) When you say that you love me to.
13) When you play with my hands when I hold your hand while I am driving.
14) Our jokes that we always made.
15) To see your laugh that always makes me happy when I saw it.
16) The way you look me in the eyes, I can see the love comes from.
17) EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU.

17 things I miss about you.

Message from me to you

Since the day I found you and I decide that I will look after you until now, this feeling won’t be vanished in me. I will always look after you, even now that I’m far from you, our love will makes us feel near to each other. Your face will be my courage by the time I will be train.

Face your day like always you did. Even you lonely without me, just be strong. Okeyh. Concern about your study and jangan males2!.hehe.xp, I’m sorry I can’t be there on our 1st year anniversary..i love you and always love you. Just stay for who you are okei and stay teppau always..ahaha..6 months ney nda krasaaan ney keyh..dun think too much, wish that you love me forever and our plan goes smoothly. Amin.

Lastly from me, lots of love, kish and hugs for you. And do take care always what ever you do, and be patient and be strong always. I love you so much..emmmuahx!!!!!!hugs you, when you woke up in the morning, remember that I always greet good morning saying and have a nice day. When you are about to sleep at night, remember that i always greet you good night and give you a big hug. Whenever you crying cause you miss me a lot, remember that I always give my shoulder and calm you down. A new chapter of us will start. Remember, I always be your baby..mhwax288! love you 

Raya with her...x)

My spotlight of the year...best time of the year..ahaha..apakn..meress laa aku..xp, just wanna tell you with honour that this is the first i celebrate Raya with the one who i love the most..i've got complete family this year...n her who always complete me..thank you again..keep holding on bebeh...and attention to all of you..f u wanna describe us, just look the sincerity inside us..then u get the answer.as simple phrase for me to her..if there's other word than love to describe this feeling..i will search for it..coz after all...myself, i already dedicate it to you....x),peace x)

errr...raya's hugs...ahah xp, a2 jaa descriptionyaaa...




eseh3....nada description..lyat tya saja...ahaha..xp



x)



we are at Kupang..my friend's crib...heee...

Raya's picture with my friend

eseh...this is my exclassmate msa form 5 dua2 ane laa...ahaha..adli aka kiyai with his fiance.



this is my another exclassmate msa form 5. wafiy and his girlfriend and yg kai bju ijau 2 is girlfriendnya pnya sister.



This is my another exclassmate...tngginya mcm saya jugak..ahaha..amzar and his girlfriend...adeyh...smua tya kn bgf drg ane..ahaha..xp,well smoga bahagia kamu..hehe..xp



this is saiful and his siblings and his friend...yg bju pink 2 saiful 2..mun kn blwn PES agataa patnya..ahaha..handal..p aku burenk dah manang blik2 a2..kmu laa saja g melawan..ahaah...teppauu..



at Saman's house..yg wear bju grey kaa biru 2..ahaaha..yg tangah2..a2 laaa...namanya..saman aka daniel...sapa2 yg suka bceta...bceta laa wif him..sal dr dulu nda pandai abis cetanya..ahaha :P



Yayy!!!!...this is us..me and my baby..ahaha...sama c kiyai and sidah we bgmbr...biar grand cket..ahaha..msane we dumah my baby..beraya...rayaa kan...memanglaa mest beraya pat urg yg tersayang..ambil point laa katakan..ahaha xp..

Have a great time this Raya...my first Raya nada exam...hehehe..n my last Raya as a civilian..thanks for yg memeriahkan suasana raya..esp to my family and my Hazeedah..xp, c kiyai,wafiy,amzar and the others..thank you so much...raya taun dpan g we rock..ahaha..

1st day of raya picture..

Selamat Hari Raya

Assalamualaikum...Raya! Raya! Raya!, hehe...Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims..sempena hari raya..better post it in malay laa aa...mun namanya raya..ahaha...errr...sempena hari raya ani...saya mengucapkan..(haha..casual bnaaa...xp), Happy Raya to all of you...terutamanya..kepada mama n babah..abg zai,antoy, bg yoi, apis, syabang n syadek, to all my kazen..n all my relative..selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin..mohon ampun sekiranya ada kesilapan dan salah...smoga mendapat berkat di hari yg mulia dan penuh gemilang ini...amin2 ya rabbal alamin..

to my lover..sapa nah..ahaha..to Hazeedah...selamat Hari Raya to you dear..n smoga meriah raya you dis year with your family..our 1st raya together..dun wanna expect more..but..yeah..beraya tni..ayas saja tyaa..ahaha...xp, assignment jgn lupa buat..errr..kasut jgn lupa bli lgi..whaha..apakan..sayang youuu, jgn sedih2 walaupun me kan masuk kandang..heeee..never turn back at you no matter what...raya's hugs...xp,

to all my friends...my bestfriends, my ex classmate,my hostelmate, bhp sja kmu tym raya ane....ada yg busy jua with exam and assignment...jgntaa dbuat..ahaha..beraya taa saja..heee...x), f ada salah ku maafkan..biasalaa manusia ane..f kmu jua mun ada rsa2nya salah pat ku..bektaa minta maaf..xp, keyh..thats all for my Raya Greeting, enjoy your raya everyone!

berlalu laa sudah ramadhan..sebulan berpuasa..tiba syawal kita rayakan...(bernyanyi..ahaha..xp)

Assalmualaikum everyone...happy fasting anyway to all the Muslim. well it's 2 o'clock in the morning..i wonder what time I'm going to sleep..sigh..my eyes still wide open..just fooling around. how's my Ramadhan going so far? well it's better than i thought..alhamdulilah i haven't miss any of it..be proud of myself..x)

well, its been two weeks already..ermm..now I am busy with my family decorating our living room for Raya..feeling of enthusiastic rise in me because this raya we will be celebrating with complete family..oh yeah..my 2nd brother will be back overseas graduating his master course this year..

Whats new for me in this ramadhan. i had my birhtday during the fasting month and its kinda a new for me..but it went well..i remembered on my birthday me and her was waiting a long queue at 'Pasar Gadong' phew..its really test our patience..ahaha..but overall is okay..i have a great time..being with her and later that night..Muiz surprised us with a treat at Mamih and thank you for that..x). i really appreciate it dude..i thought you've forgot my birthday..heee..

*yawn* yes..i am sleepy already..k then see ya next time..posa jangan tak posa..xp, assalmualaikum x)

D’Masiv – Jangan Menyerah

tak ada manusia
yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali
segala yang telah terjadi

kita pasti pernah
dapatkan cobaan yang berat
seakan hidup ini
tak ada artinya lagi

syukuri apa yang ada
hidup adalah anugerah
tetap jalani hidup ini
melakukan yang terbaik

tak ada manusia
yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali
segala yang telah terjadi
Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
kebesaran dan kuasanya
bagi hambanya yang sabar
dan tak kenal putus asa

The greatest history of my life.

Saya and Dia in Early stage slideshow

just mumbling around ..heee xp

Back when we are kids, we look at our brothers or someone’s success; it always gives inspiration to us. Yeah I don’t any sister. We always wonder how we’re going to be in that stage, how we look and what we do for living. Every step and decision that we made isn’t easy as we thought. If life is easy to live, Faith can decode. We always prepare to face anything, but we couldn’t. What is going to happen still going to be happen. As we live, as we compare ourselves and earth, we are just a small creature with millions of potential individually.

Sunrise and sunset differentiate morning and evening. It won’t stop until it told to be stop. How we live and how we think differentiate our maturity and how far we understand our purpose of living. Everyone have their own things to deal with. Hard and easy things are a must. How strong you are? How far you understand the meaning of all this? The answer is the result. It can’t be describe and it’s hard to explain.

By getting through the all this, bright and dark always waiting for us. You can choose either one. It’s easy to say we don’t want to live in the dark, sorrow and pain serving us everyday or the other story. The hardest part is doing. This is the time for you to show words aren’t just words or something else. This is the time when smile happily or you cried and just want to scream loudly. Regret and satisfaction plays role in our heart

Learning is our friend. Everyday we learned new things. Good or bad doesn’t matter. You just put a tick or cross just like filling a form. It’s up to you describe the do’s and don’ts. Someone will appear to help you to understand those things. After sometimes you seem to realize that you care for the people that want to see your success. But then it has option whether you will see they stay or they go. That is the way it has to be. It depends on how you handle it. Maybe a few days you locked yourself in your room. Sit in the dark. Tears flows like a river. And someday you will realize. it’s no point to hold back and do nothing. That’s the time you will become stronger than before.

To be continue. . . .

Today is something

Today I've been woke up with a phone call from the police department, i was kinda lazy to pickup the phone actually because i am still sleepy. another late night sleep..gosh its everyday i am having my late night sleep. forget bout that. the matter is about the phone call that i received this morning. it's a call for me, they asked me to come on 21st for fitness test. yeah i did apply to join the Royal Brunei Police Force also. One of our topic for today is fitness. Try to find out the level of your fitness if you have a free time. For me, My fitness level at the moment is quite low, i guess..i do sport 3 times a week. but for me its not enough to reach a stable fitness level. whatever, just wish me luck for the upcoming test.arassoo..heee :)

And another thing for today is the newspaper, i read through newsapaper for today and my highlight topic is people complaining about the HECAS new online application which was used February earlier this year. It was brought up to newspaper and its an interesting topic to read. My mum told me about it actually. It has an excuse actually why something goes wrong in this system because it was new system. Even i feel like a nub when im trying to use that new system in the first place. but it was not really tough actually and in logic ways, people using this system are the A level Graduate and Other collage. Should be classified as an educated people and comptuter literate. Error by the HECAS cause disappointment for some peoples. But i don't take this seriously cause i am focus in my own things right now.

The last thing is about me. I remembered my resolution for this 2009 is to see more light shines in me. I found the one who gave me the lights and im very thankful for that. but in generally, some part of me whisper there are a lots of things that i haven't achieve yet. It's like i'm the one who were sitting in the corner, hide myself in a party. im afraid to show myself because all i've got right now is less than other peoples had. but eventually patient is everything. pray for me to those who read this post. thank you and have a nice day.

Assalmualaikum

exhausted!

hey...how are you today everyone?? heee..1st of all. happy birthday to his majesty, may allah bless you with your kindness and being a excellent example to rule all people in Brunei Darussalam..Daulat Kebawah Duli Tuan Patik.

exhausted laa last nyte nyamu eyh..ahaha..you noe y? coz seminggu dah nda bsukan then come into men badminton dmlm..kpisan usulnya..ahaha..oh yeah..i used to do sport..and f i don't it may affect to my body..cpat tya kan damam 2 krg..msane ane g membri ijap oh..damam jaa kana ucp selesma bayi..mcmtaa diri ani memelihara bayi skandang..ahaha..but everone care..no doubt about it..its a freaking virus with no cure..sapa mau aa..alai pun nda mau 2..ahaa xp

you wanna see our tmpt keramat..ahaha..this is our dewan kemasyarakatan Kampong Kilanas..tpi panat..Kmpng Kilanas tpi d Bengkurong..heheh xp, usually we played at Kampung Parit..but tutup saja..nda maju bisnes..tukar tmpt laa..nda jua tahan..ayas saja tya..ahaha :p






yataa after that..on my way back home with my twnz..i cant even say a word..felt hard to breathe also meh..c apis ane bsgup tya jua..mkin tya lgi..heheh..but after blik umah..relax my muscles and mandi apa..brutaa okay..phew..heee..then n9ing fb jap..ahaha.smpt g 2..n n9ing msn..nunggu bulan tak timbul2..ttdo laa..heheh :P

today.i woke up at 8 in the morning..as usual..i do my own thing..then ceta2 with my cousin sblh about the written test..this afternoon nada buat apa2..fell bored jua ohh..because i have nothing to do..yataa blogging ane..mun nda waa..malass taa ku..ahaha :P, heard the mews bout garai buka tonight dbndr..but ntah..every year k garai2 plg neh..but nda tau taun ane..huhuhu...
i don't noe what will happen tonight coz its out of my ability to tell you..ahaha..but once again..Selamat Hari Keputeraan Kebawah Duli Tuan Patik..assalamualaikum

sorry for the unupdate thing'ing'..hehehe

GOOD MORINIG!!! heheh...i am so sorry for the inconvenient..hahaa..naleh ku ngapdate ane waa...hmm.. :P, i just want to have my own blog..thats it..so if people ask me if I have a blog..i can say yes and it feels like im not left behind..heheh...panya ada jua urg yg mencheck blog ku ane..pemas jua aaa..ahaha :P, today..i woke up and my mum gave me a letter from hecas..jubur..brutaa ada...i didnt get through any of the high institution that i had apply...i have my own way ryte now...seacrhng for a permanent job although its difficult...but i have to keep my head straight and never give up...mungkin nada rezekiku x dubd a2..heheh..

yesterday..i've started a new job at Kiarong...money invesment thingy..but i wish not to continue that job coz of my curiosity, another factor is that kinda job is very risky..heheh..for me..when we do a job..of course the offer is important..but also need a comfort in me to do a job..this kinda job is totally not suitable for me. so i decided not to continue..

To dia, thank you for giving me support everytym for anythng that i do...a girl who always there for me and being a bestfriend for me always..it's been 7 month now..i just wanna say thank you and thank god that i've found you..heee :), jubur you...heeee..




Thats all..sincerely from me...pas ney..update2 saja x..insyallah..have a nice day...peace!

what is happening to me??

just want to say that i am wondering what is happening to me right now..things that I've done is slightly different now. i try to figure it out. i don't want to be like this anymore. wish me luck guyz.
love always

Happy sixth month for you and me

yeah! today is the first day at the beginning of the month..it's been sixth month I'm being with her?who? better find out yourself laaa..heheh =p, I just wanna say thank you to her for staying with me and stay present in my life. I appreciate for everything that she's done to me. everything that we've been through for the past 6 month is not an easy thing to do. I've learned from her a lot. i've learned how to be patient to get something that I want. there are hard times of course and that's depend on how we handle it. thank you for accepting me as who i am. I admit this guy glitter with lack of perfection. i wish i could do best for you. today everything just stay calm. as usual i spend my day at this fucking lappy and damn!i've enjoy it..hehehe..tomorrow i'll be going to register for the 'Bomba' officer. wish me luck guyz..keyh..thats all from me..bye2

Getting started with this damn thing.

hye there..for all viewers..this blog is all about me..what ive done, my history, so i'm new here...don't make fun of me!

yesterday and today is one of my bad day..have you ever felt that..having bad day two times in a row..i bet it is not a hat trick..hehehe..but this is life..i faced most of hard things before..i bet its nota sins to post in short paragraph. hehehe...because im too lazy to type right now..feel week and sorrow..but i have to survive my day..wish me luck guyz..:')